Angela has no regrets, well, maybe just one
Angela has no regrets, well, maybe just one
Angela Murray and Julie Chen Moonves. Photo: Sonja Flemming/CBS.
By John Powell – GlobalTV.com 
Angela was surely a force to be reckoned with in the Big Brother house. Just ask Matt, Lisa, Quinn and Kenney who had to deal with her combative nature at one time another. Behaviour which drove Matt and Kenney to tears.
Despite seeing the effect her contentious actions had on others Angela doesn’t regret any of it except one altercation or should we make that several altercations with one person.
John Powell: Who do I hope follows me into the jury house?
Angela Murray: I’m going to go with Chelsie because she is very manipulative and I’m hoping that Makensy can see right through it, wins the next HoH and she evicts her.
John Powell: During your first month of the game you were very combative with many of your fellow houseguests. Looking back, what do you think of your behaviour now and do you regret it?
Angela Murray: So early on, I was extremely combative with some of the houseguests. Do I regret it? Listen, I was going on little to no sleep and that house is a pressure cooker. In those moments when I was feeling the way that I was feeling I wish that I had taken the time to get some sleep but I’m living in a house with a lot of people that are half of my age that are staying up until four in the morning, sometimes all night and trying to work on that schedule and do the same thing because of paranoia and the pressure cooker of the house, my emotions were heightened.
I don’t regret it, honestly. Standing up to for myself to Matt that’s what I would I would have done that in real life and I’m not going to stand for it in the house and so I don’t regret it.
I don’t necessarily regret standing up to Lisa, either, because she treated me in such a way. The only thing that I regret is letting Quinn push my buttons and react I should have known better and I only saw what he was doing after it was too late. I had already kind of went off like three times with him. I wish that I had seen what he was doing and corrected my behaviour and not allowed myself to react the way that I did with Quinn.
John Powell: You mentioned not knowing who you were as a person, as Angela, until now. Explain to us why it has taken so long to connect with yourself and discover you who you are as Angela?
Angela Murray: I really wanted to do something on my own, just to kind of figure out who I am as a person, as a woman, as just a girl at age 50.
Angela Murray. Photo: CBS.
Going into this game, it’s taken that long, I think because I’ve never fully been by myself. I’ve always been with family, right from my mother’s house and helping raise my siblings, right into my husband’s childhood home with his parents and then raising my own babies.
I’ve been a caretaker. I’ve been a mother. I’ve been a wife. I’ve been a daughter. I’ve been a friend. I’ve just never just been Angela by myself.
I was married at 18 with my husband at 15. I’ve always made decisions with him. I’ve never just made big decisions on my own. I wanted to know what that felt like and who I was in that position coming into the Big Brother house.
I got all those answers but truth be told, I guess I’ve always been very strong. I can do hard things it but I guess it took just being by myself to see that I have the tenacity, that I do have the grit, that I do have what it takes to to do do hard things and to make hard decisions and to stand on my own and sometimes even handle hurt by myself.
I did a lot of that. I did a lot of that alone there and I’m proud of myself. I have come out a stronger Angela and I realized that I’m all of the things. I’m all of the things that I was before I went in there but I also am a girl. I’m just a girl who followed a dream and it came true and I’m so much better for it. I’m stronger. I’m even stronger than what I went in and I know who this girl is now. I am 50 and fun.
